When everything around you is falling apart, it can feel like the world is going to end (or maybe you wish that it would). Maybe you’re doing your level best to keep things harmonious in your life, but then somehow you lose your focus for a split second.
You make a bad decision and suddenly all hell breaks loose.
It can feel like vertigo: your surroundings are spinning and you are unable to feel stable despite exercising your strongest proprioceptive abilities. People are saying things that you’d never thought they’d say. Worse, people are saying things that you never thought they’d say to you.
To quote the brilliant, insightful Talking Heads from their song Once In A Lifetime:
“You may ask yourself, what is that beautiful house?/You may ask yourself, where does that highway lead to?/You may ask yourself, am I right, or am I wrong?/You may say to yourself, my god, what have I done?”
So, to paraphrase the illustrious Heads, how did I get here? Why did I do/say/think that? It can all be so confusing when you are in the midst of it. Everything can happen so fast that your head literally spins. What do I do/say/think now? Maybe your body takes over and your breathing changes to rapid gasps. You’re sitting down but don’t remember doing so. And are you rocking? Is this really happening?
Then, amidst the chaos you suddenly become aware of the calm. The calm inside you. And in that space you become aware of a thought forming. That still small voice says:
You have no control over how this will all turn out.
You might think this would be a scary thought to have at a time like this, but for some reason, it is not. Instead, you find that it’s a comfort.
Shanti: “The Peace which passeth understanding.” ~T.S. Eliot from The Waste Land
Karen Creamer Author, Coach, Speaker 