50: The year I got old

I was thinking about how I have been in a funk these past several weeks, when I realized, no, it’s actually been several months now that I’ve been feeling this way.  I realized what is partly affecting kneemy mood and my decisions is this: I feel old.

  1. My skin looks old.
  2. All of my joints hurt all the time so I don’t want to exercise.
  3. If I do exercise, all my muscles hurt the next day.
  4. My bowel pattern is a constant concern.
  5. No matter what time I go to bed, or how late I sleep in the morning, I’m still tired all the time.
  6. I don’t want to do any work anymore.
  7. I don’t want to eat “healthy” anymore. I want cappuccino whoopie pies and DQ blizzards and apple crisps and Peanut M+M’s every frikkin’ day.
  8. I don’t even want to read anymore because my expensively, progressively, trifocally, Transitions vision sucks.

How’s that for pathetic? After I read my list it dawned on me: I’m depressed. SAD probably, since this is the longest, coldest, snowiest winter in the last, what, million years.

My daughter was reading this over my shoulder without my knowledge as I was writing it. A little while later she said,

She: “Mom, it’s not true.”

Me: “What’s not true?”

She: “That stuff you were writing; it’s not true.”

My daughter: yep, think I’ll keep her.

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6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Nadine Pranckunas
    Mar 30, 2013 @ 08:19:08

    K if you are depressed,there is no hope for the rest of us! You are the most life loving person I know. Hang in there! Spring is coming!!!!

    Reply

  2. Bindu
    Mar 31, 2013 @ 06:15:43

    I don’t want to get old! Don’t worry – you are not alone. Does that knowledge make it any better? 🙂 Stupid me.. 🙂

    Reply

  3. kwrites
    Mar 31, 2013 @ 08:16:39

    It does make it better, actually! Thanks, Bindu! 😀

    Reply

  4. Callily (@boardingchick88)
    Apr 01, 2013 @ 11:25:00

    I have some self help books that a certain “neighbor” lent me…they may help…lol! We need to do coffee soon, you need girl time, that is the best medicine!! ❤

    Reply

  5. kwrites
    Apr 02, 2013 @ 06:37:08

    😀 Thanks, Traci!!

    Reply

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